I have recently taken steps to reflect upon my character and personality. When it seemed like the universe was united against me, I knew it was time to do self-analysis. What if they were all correct? What if it is ME that is the problem? How could they ALL possibly be wrong?
I'll be honest. This has not been easy. My ego was dragged kicking and screaming. "It's a conspiracy! A trap! CRUSH THEM. Crush them all. Burn their villages. Rape their women. Enslave their children. Don't be a pussy -- they will RUE the day they ever fucked with me! Grr..."
Thankfully, the more sensible side of my Gemini self held firm. It said, "BC... you ain't conquering diddly squat. Why don't you observe how your actions affects others? Pay attention... look for clues."
So, I set out on a quest to make sense of it all. Here are some of my observations:
(1) I am ultimately responsible for my own happiness. I can't depend on others to make me happy. I have to get out there and create my own happiness.
(2) Disappointments are temporary setbacks, but shouldn't make or break me. They should not hold such the power to ruin my day or week. Everybody has their own agenda... priorities... goals. If I am deeply disappointed, then I must have erroneously given a person or event too much power over me.
(3) As much satisfaction as it would be to duct tape, tie-up, and beat the shit out of mouthy people, it's more prudent to grin and bear them. Verbally jousting with others solves no problems and can get downright ugly. Harmony can only be achieved through less violence and lowered weapons.
Once I began to realize these simple realities, I have been living a far happier life. Everyone may now breathe a sigh of relief. :)