Is My Prescription Killing My Personality?
It's been three months since I began taking Adderall XR. There have been ups and downs as a result of taking this medication. The winner is my job. I am more focused. I don't have a ton of projects on my desk opened but not yet completed. I am Mr. Robotron Efficiency Worker. Mundane tasks, which I once avoided like the plague, are now steamrolled over.
The loser would have to be my relationship. Apparently, when you are so pumped up on endorphins, your insecurities and wimpiness goes by the wayside. In fact, it becomes downright impossible for your significant other to influence your emotions anymore. You are no longer a silly human where weaknesses such as feelings and insecurities rule your world. In a nushell, your partner will think you are a cold bitch from hell with not a smidgen of a personality left!
This really becomes apparent when you are suddenly well behaved AND quiet at your local watering hole. You no longer crave to be the center of attention. You don't put on your monkey suit and clap your cymbals together to amuse your friends. You rarely drink much at all because you don't need to. You don't tug on stranger's nipples or grab their crotch anymore. In fact, you don't really care if anyone is checking you out. Validation of your hotness is no longer needed. Afterall, you are no longer human.
But at what price? Is the imperfect me far better for my relationship and friends? Or do I put what's best for me above their needs? Hmm...