Mid Year Report Card
I have lots to be thankful for. I have a wonderful partner that still turns me on as the day we met. I have two beautiful Dachshunds that love me unconditionally. I have my own Whipping Boy to beat on the tennis court. I have a nice home in the country. I have a stable job that I am happy with. My football university (LSU) will probably kick your favorite college's ass this year. Life is looking pretty sweet for me right now.
The Blogger Summit Two was a perfect event to "cap things off". My partner, E-Shrew, mistakenly thought that I didn't have a good time because I didn't talk much about it when I got home. I did show him all the pics and pointed out who was who, but he didn't detect the enthusiasm he was looking for. The Blogger Summit Two was my chance to go back to high school. Instead of being the quiet one sitting at the lunch room table by myself, I was able to be the social butterfly I have always wanted to be. It meant a lot to me. Meeting the other blog Ambassadors helped get me a keen sense of who I am... and how far I have come. What may have appeared as a lack of enthusiasm was really an extreme sense of inner happiness and acceptance. I got a confirmation that I have indeed jumped over a major hurdle that used to plague my life.
But I can't rest on everything that is going great for me. I will keep blogging because it is an important outlet for me. It is just not as important for me to be a popular blogger anymore. I have already matured in that sense. I do like openly expressing myself in ways many can not. Some of what I do on my blog is downright immature and silly, but I know in my heart that it does more good than harm. I get so many emails saying I have somehow managed to help someone come out. My silly little blog helps people realise they can have a happy normal life living as a gay man. The gay world is not all drag folks!
I DO want to spend a lot more time and attention working on my book. Blogging is easy. If you write a crappy blog post, you can always do another one that may be better recieved. With a book, you damn well better put a lot of effort into it and have it close to perfect before you send it to a Publisher. I have spent so much time developing a compelling story and characters, but now it is time to write past those 90 pages where I have been roadblocked. I must resist trying to create the perfect paragraph if it keeps hampering me finishing the story.
On my fitness level, I want to get in better shape. I can haul ass on the tennis court just fine. Somehow, when I try to haul ass with a football... I pull a quad muscle. It is so important to cross that line of scrimmage with high speed, but I somehow injure myself in doing so. My partner reminds me that I am 37 years old and I can't expect to play football like I used to. But I am hellbent and determined that I should be conditioned enough to play yard football without pulling something. I also want to get more impressive biceps and legs. My arms and legs are woefully behind other people who more seriously work out. Time to build a new workout routine around things I hate to do in the gym!
On my financial situation, now is the time to stay home and start saving money. Just because I have extra money in my account, I shouldn't squander that on trip # 1,200 for the year. That needs to go in savings for a Rainy Day. This is what I want to focus on for the rest of the year. If I suddenly need a new set of tires or have a huge unexpected expense, I don't want to be in a situation where I am sweating it out until my next paycheck. I should be able to save more money to where I am not in those tight situations ever again.
So... that's my Mid Year Report Card with recommendations in areas where I need to improve upon. I'll let you know how well I did at the end of the year.
The Blogger Summit Two was a perfect event to "cap things off". My partner, E-Shrew, mistakenly thought that I didn't have a good time because I didn't talk much about it when I got home. I did show him all the pics and pointed out who was who, but he didn't detect the enthusiasm he was looking for. The Blogger Summit Two was my chance to go back to high school. Instead of being the quiet one sitting at the lunch room table by myself, I was able to be the social butterfly I have always wanted to be. It meant a lot to me. Meeting the other blog Ambassadors helped get me a keen sense of who I am... and how far I have come. What may have appeared as a lack of enthusiasm was really an extreme sense of inner happiness and acceptance. I got a confirmation that I have indeed jumped over a major hurdle that used to plague my life.
But I can't rest on everything that is going great for me. I will keep blogging because it is an important outlet for me. It is just not as important for me to be a popular blogger anymore. I have already matured in that sense. I do like openly expressing myself in ways many can not. Some of what I do on my blog is downright immature and silly, but I know in my heart that it does more good than harm. I get so many emails saying I have somehow managed to help someone come out. My silly little blog helps people realise they can have a happy normal life living as a gay man. The gay world is not all drag folks!
I DO want to spend a lot more time and attention working on my book. Blogging is easy. If you write a crappy blog post, you can always do another one that may be better recieved. With a book, you damn well better put a lot of effort into it and have it close to perfect before you send it to a Publisher. I have spent so much time developing a compelling story and characters, but now it is time to write past those 90 pages where I have been roadblocked. I must resist trying to create the perfect paragraph if it keeps hampering me finishing the story.
On my fitness level, I want to get in better shape. I can haul ass on the tennis court just fine. Somehow, when I try to haul ass with a football... I pull a quad muscle. It is so important to cross that line of scrimmage with high speed, but I somehow injure myself in doing so. My partner reminds me that I am 37 years old and I can't expect to play football like I used to. But I am hellbent and determined that I should be conditioned enough to play yard football without pulling something. I also want to get more impressive biceps and legs. My arms and legs are woefully behind other people who more seriously work out. Time to build a new workout routine around things I hate to do in the gym!
On my financial situation, now is the time to stay home and start saving money. Just because I have extra money in my account, I shouldn't squander that on trip # 1,200 for the year. That needs to go in savings for a Rainy Day. This is what I want to focus on for the rest of the year. If I suddenly need a new set of tires or have a huge unexpected expense, I don't want to be in a situation where I am sweating it out until my next paycheck. I should be able to save more money to where I am not in those tight situations ever again.
So... that's my Mid Year Report Card with recommendations in areas where I need to improve upon. I'll let you know how well I did at the end of the year.
posted by Brettcajun at Monday, July 02, 2007
8 Comments:
damn dude sounds like you really got your head on straight.....i applaud you and cannot wait till i enter the real gay life and life my life as an out gay man sometimes i just bust at the seams waiting for this to all be behind me and life my life in truth.....congrats dude for doing it an doing it well
What, no trip to Tucson planned???
If you promise a pool party or a pillow party... I'll try to eek out a Tucson travel budget.
Hell Homer, if you plan all that I'll come too! lol
Man, you're getting all introspective, responsible, balanced, and well rounded (in a good way). I'm lovin it. You're doing well, my friend.
this is a very cool thing to do. i think every once in a while you have to sit and reflect on the good stuff that's happening in your life and then also give yourself some goals.
anyway, i wish you luck in your efforts to change the things that will make you happier.
I appreciate your candor. I read your blog regularly and it helps me to get through the day with a smile. THANKS!!!
37? Your shitting me? You have more to be grateful there as well.
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