A Happy Ending to an Ending... and New Beginnings

During the Halloween Weekend in New Orleans, I spent more time with E.Shrew than I had even planned. In his own little way, E.Shrew showed me that he cared. I was not already set aside as some forgotten memory in his past. That is what I needed the most. I wanted to know that I did matter to the little booger on some level. I was grateful. I will always love E.Shrew. We had some great years and he showed this country bumpkin more of the world than anyone else has ever done. As long as he demonstrates that he does give a damn about me, he is going to be a part of my life always. In a way, it was a perfect way to cap a happy ending to our ending.

Now, I am going into the unchartered waters of "dating". I don't particuliarly like going on "dates". It's uncomfortable. I can pretty much guess the troubles that will crop up. I can honestly say that I only tend to trick with guys that I can see myself in a relationship with. This is usually only after noticing them in public and observing how they conduct themselves with others. If I am attracted to them, and there are no obvious red flags that I can't deal with, then I make my move.

So, I do a kind of "are they boyfriend material?" screening process before I even consider going on a date. Despite my reputation, I am really more Sally Dogooder than Whorina Cunt. Anything you have seen on my blog or in person is probably more for "entertainment purposes" than anything closely resembling my true character. I will not even consider dating an online whore that continually trolls all the sex sites for hookups. Not my type of man. Look, I know I am very fuckable. But you have to bring some kind of character and an emotional substance with you to the table.

I am looking for a partner who is willing to share the ups and downs of life with me. I am not worldly. I don't even have a passport. I am not pretentious. Your money or nice car is not important to me. I'd rather have a partner that was nurturing and a good lover. I would like a partner who is physically active, exercises, works out or plays a sport. Hey, part of being a good lover is having parts that are fun to play with! I am looking for a person that will unconditionally love me, be willing to share their life with me, and treat me as an equal. That is what I want. These wants are little... but I do deserve it.

MMMmmm.... WHAT A MUSCLE DADDY! Large Tony weekly puts up pics on his blog about guys he is attracted to. Ummm... I think he likes the younger pretty boys. Not me... I like the full fledged muscle dads. This is my ideal type of man. He has a little badness to him, and that is what makes him even more of a turn on.

OH MY GAWD!

I just found out something so SHOCKING! The University of Kentucky Cheerleaders are going to be the headline act at the New Orleans Halloween Circuit Party this coming Saturday! (click link to see yourself!) WOW! That's is pretty ballsy for an SEC school! Can you imagine if Alabama, LSU or Tennessee's cheerleaders dared to do such a thing? Those schools would have their phone circuitry burning up from angry redneck homophobic fans! I am truly surprised... and HAPPY! I will be partying with the rest of the boys at the New Orleans Arena. I can't wait! I can already imagine all those homos chanting "LET'S GO CATS!"

Hardening my image...

Yet more gratuitous photos of myself. I have somehow had the urge to shed the "preppy casual" look for something rougher in my new singlehooddom. What do you think of my new look?

How am I feeling?

This video sums up my feelings right now. I have my good days and my bad days. There are moments when I am downright sad about the relationship that was lost. Now when I see my Ex in public with his friends I feel like a third wheel. Almost as if the relationship was only in my head. I am chugging along dealing with the brave new world I am in. I am looking forward to brighter days when I no longer feel like a doormat.

The Queerest Pic I have Ever Done...

What was I doing? Playing hide and go seek?

Goodbye Video to E.Shrew

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A Key

Unlocks a heart
Shares a trust
Opens a door
Creates a bond
Represents commitment to those we hold dear
Allows one to enter freely
Zanily locks away things
Yields honesty & shines light on all things real

Letting the Cat out the Bag

I am now single. It's true. Me and E.Shrew have amicably decided that it is for the best that we part ways as boyfriends. What does this mean for me? Nothing really. I am feeling mostly a sigh of relief. I am fine with this decision. This momentous event actually occurred last week, but I wasn't going to "run to the presses" with the news.

Hand me my leather...

Mr. Bayou Grizzlies 2006 needs your help. For the Bayou Grizzlies promotional photo ops, I have to bring my "GOOD" leather. The problem is that the ONLY leather I have right now is a borrowed leather jock strap. So... this weekend... I'll be in the French Quarter looking for leather. I know it is not going to be cheap. Isn't every leather piece about $100? The question I have is... what leather pieces should I get based on my body type? Any recommendations would be greatly appreciated.

UPDATE: A VERY GOOD FRIEND offered to let me borrow whatever leather I need for this upcoming photoshoot. WHEW! THANK YOU KEVIN!

Pictures can say so much sometimes...

Now mind you... I did realize the moment I found this sign at a national park on St. John that it would make a GREAT PIC to put on my blog. It is practically SCREAMING everything that is wrong with me. In fact, putting these pics on my blog is just like throwing red meat at my Hater's Club. Why on Earth would I then go ahead and put this on my blog? That would be SOOOO brettcajun of me!

Piggies of St. Croix

In a tropical rainforest on St. Croix, you can actually feed these humongous pigs cans of O'Doul's. The original pig used to drink regular beer until his untimely death from "liver failure". He is buried on the property. Now, they only let you feed them O'Doul's. I was sprayed and blinded by one pig's crushing of a can of O'Dou'ls. Fortunately, this was not caught on tape.

WARNING: THESE PICS MAY INFURIATE SOME AUBURN FANS FOR NO PLAUSABLE REASON:

U.S. Virgin Islands Video Podcast

I have moved on from Jiggy Dancing in my bedroom to showing some flesh on the beach. Is this the best video podcast I have yet to do? You guys decide.

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U.S.V.I.: People Pics

These are the pics where the fans and haters of this blog get to let out a collective groan. It is the ME ME ME pics. Well? How else should I introduce these pics? There are plenty more pics coming in the future. Look for the PIGGIE PICS and the SELF CENTRE PICS soon.

U.S.V.I.: Scenary

E.Shrew and I just got home from 8 days in the U.S. Virgin Islands. I took a bazillion pics. I am posting the first batch here. Notice I didn't post any pics of us yet. That would be expected from me, huh? Look for more pics tomorrow and a very special video podcast soon!

In the U.S. Virgin Islands...

I am laying low in the U.S. Virgin Islands for 7 days. My blog will go on hiatus for the time being. Don't fret... I'll be thinking of you guys while I am here buzzing on rum, walking on the beautiful blue beaches, and snorkeling above some gorgeous coral reefs. E. Shrew has given me a wonderful birthday present!