A Happy Ending to an Ending... and New Beginnings

During the Halloween Weekend in New Orleans, I spent more time with E.Shrew than I had even planned. In his own little way, E.Shrew showed me that he cared. I was not already set aside as some forgotten memory in his past. That is what I needed the most. I wanted to know that I did matter to the little booger on some level. I was grateful. I will always love E.Shrew. We had some great years and he showed this country bumpkin more of the world than anyone else has ever done. As long as he demonstrates that he does give a damn about me, he is going to be a part of my life always. In a way, it was a perfect way to cap a happy ending to our ending.

Now, I am going into the unchartered waters of "dating". I don't particuliarly like going on "dates". It's uncomfortable. I can pretty much guess the troubles that will crop up. I can honestly say that I only tend to trick with guys that I can see myself in a relationship with. This is usually only after noticing them in public and observing how they conduct themselves with others. If I am attracted to them, and there are no obvious red flags that I can't deal with, then I make my move.

So, I do a kind of "are they boyfriend material?" screening process before I even consider going on a date. Despite my reputation, I am really more Sally Dogooder than Whorina Cunt. Anything you have seen on my blog or in person is probably more for "entertainment purposes" than anything closely resembling my true character. I will not even consider dating an online whore that continually trolls all the sex sites for hookups. Not my type of man. Look, I know I am very fuckable. But you have to bring some kind of character and an emotional substance with you to the table.

I am looking for a partner who is willing to share the ups and downs of life with me. I am not worldly. I don't even have a passport. I am not pretentious. Your money or nice car is not important to me. I'd rather have a partner that was nurturing and a good lover. I would like a partner who is physically active, exercises, works out or plays a sport. Hey, part of being a good lover is having parts that are fun to play with! I am looking for a person that will unconditionally love me, be willing to share their life with me, and treat me as an equal. That is what I want. These wants are little... but I do deserve it.