I feel like my wings have been clipped. My twin brother tells a good friend of mine that he stumbled upon my blog. He tells my friend that he found many pics of me shirtless and found articles of me "dogging" dad. He sounded disgusted by the blog. My friend warned me of this immediately so I could quickly convert posts to "SAVE AS DRAFT" for anything potentially embarrassing to me.
While taking my mother to her monthly eye doctor appointment in New Orleans, she shocks me by declaring "I've heard about your blog." She says it with an air of disgust. Hold up. My parents have never used a computer or the internet, yet now my mother is throwing my blog in my face! I replied back to her "that is my PERSONAL website." MEMO TO FAMILY: I have never talked about my blog with you because it is my own private space on the internet. It was never meant for family to personally read. This feels like my whole family is now reading my journals. FREAKY!
The FREAKIEST part is that my brother can apparently talk to my friend and my family about this, but can't even bring himself to talk to me about this. How fucked up is that? Where's the respect for ME? What has he done? Has he printed out everything and gave every single post and picture to dear old Dad to secure his place as #2 favorite son? I wouldn't put it past him! He calls our dad "his buddy".
E.Shrew (Michael) was incensed that my brother didn't talk to me about this first. He encouraged me to call my brother immediately. He warned me to not passively aggressively blog about it BEFORE I talk to him. So, I called my brother up last night and he must have sensed WHY I was calling him (the twin connection). He rushed me off the phone before I could tell him what I was calling him about. He was at his kids football practice. He promised he would call me afterwards, but I never heard from him. Big surprise?
Now I have a dilemma. My brother begged me to go to Las Vegas with him next weekend. I didn't want to go because I was bored with Las Vegas. I only agreed to go because I knew he had never been to Las Vegas, and he wouldn't get the true Vegas experience if he went for the first time by himself. Me and E.Shrew spent PLENTY of money to go on this trip just for him! Well, shit... now we feel like canceling the trip because we both feel I have been backstabbed and betrayed. He has obviously been reading my blog for a while, and he feels comfortable discussing it with everyone else BUT me!
Now I am wondering if my brother is the reason that my friendship with Whipping Boy was severely damaged earlier this year. There was a mysterious comment on my blog that had our company name AND my father's name. It referenced a secret. Well, I blamed Whipping Boy for that and it has severely damaged our friendship ever since. What if this was my brother making the comment way back when? I even posted about it HERE.
As I am writing this, my intuition is creeping up on me. Perhaps my brother and certain other family members have known about the blog for some time. Maybe my brother purposively told my friend BEFORE the trip to Vegas, so I would get tipped off. Why would he do this? Hmm... let's see... maybe he wanted to make sure "WHAT HAPPENS IN VEGAS, STAYS IN VEGAS". Maybe he didn't want me blogging anything potentially embarrassing to him. Hmm... just a hunch... but my twin brother is strategic and cunning that way!
So, what should I do? A part of me wants to just shitcan the whole blog now. Another part of me says I should continue on with the blog and ignore any family nosiness. If my family sees something that embarrasses them, then they shouldn't be reading my damned blog!