SINGLE
It's official. I am now SINGLE. Michael and I departed on amicable terms. This has been brewing for some time. When I blogged about The Winds of Change (August 26th), it was about my career change AND my relationship. Initially, I denied that it was about my relationship too. Then I posted the lyrics to 50 Ways to Leave your Lover. Then again, I was hinting. I suppose my Hottie Pics post was the final indication that I was moving out of a relationship into singlehood.
How do I feel? I am partly relieved and partly sad for the loss. Michael is a good person, and we could not have ended things on a better note. There was no screaming, fighting, or boiling a bunny in a pot moment. We both came to the conclusion that our relationship has not been working out for some time. He promised me that we would still be friends. I am going to hold him to that promise, because I know we can be excellent friends for each other. I still want to whip his butt in tennis and outjock him in the gym. I want him to come over and spend time with the horses and my dogs Boudreaux and Pierre, all of which he loves so much. I have never been one of those individuals that just completely cuts off all future communication with an Ex. That's just plain wrong.
Whenever someone captures a piece of my heart, I carry it forward and it is always there inside me. I know Michael and I will be good buds after all is said and done. The most important thing for me right now is to remain emotionally healthy. If I can just keep my mind focused on my career and working out, I should be fine. I just have to guard against panicking that I am single. See, I know I am going to feel that certain panic creep up soon. I start feeling like an ugly duckling that no one wants. Then I'll feel a loss of pride... like I lost some status because I am now single. I'll have to stay strong and count on my friends (personal and blogger buddies) to help me manage.
How do I feel? I am partly relieved and partly sad for the loss. Michael is a good person, and we could not have ended things on a better note. There was no screaming, fighting, or boiling a bunny in a pot moment. We both came to the conclusion that our relationship has not been working out for some time. He promised me that we would still be friends. I am going to hold him to that promise, because I know we can be excellent friends for each other. I still want to whip his butt in tennis and outjock him in the gym. I want him to come over and spend time with the horses and my dogs Boudreaux and Pierre, all of which he loves so much. I have never been one of those individuals that just completely cuts off all future communication with an Ex. That's just plain wrong.
Whenever someone captures a piece of my heart, I carry it forward and it is always there inside me. I know Michael and I will be good buds after all is said and done. The most important thing for me right now is to remain emotionally healthy. If I can just keep my mind focused on my career and working out, I should be fine. I just have to guard against panicking that I am single. See, I know I am going to feel that certain panic creep up soon. I start feeling like an ugly duckling that no one wants. Then I'll feel a loss of pride... like I lost some status because I am now single. I'll have to stay strong and count on my friends (personal and blogger buddies) to help me manage.
posted by Brettcajun at Sunday, September 18, 2005
12 Comments:
you are single and hot!
I'm very sorry to hear that.
Amicable or not, it's still tough to go through.
If you need an ear, don't hesitate to call/chat etc.
I repeat Don's sentiment! I wish only the best for you, Brett.
Your outlook on maintaining a good friendship with Michael is refreshing. It so often doesn't happen that way. I also only wish the best for you.
Yeah, I tend to to be the same way. I can't just not care for someone that has a place in my heart.
As for feelings of inadequacy, we are constantly bombarded w/images from society that we aren't complete w/o a partner. The irony is to have a successful relationship you need to first love yourself and be content w/that. Easy said, very hard to do.
Oh, and you are a handsome man. If you ever need a pick-me-up just let me know. I can be very creative w/compliments. *eg*
Hey bud I'm sorry to hear your news, but if it's the right thing... I hope this means you will consider more time in Houston! Any time you need a get away the doors are open. Be strong, and trust me you are one hot man! Looks, body, and personality, you have it all, now you need someone to appreciate you and make you feel as special as you are.
I wondered about that during the 50 ways post. Sorry big guy, but like you said, it will work out for the best for both of you!
I also got the hint that things were not well when you posted the lyrics from 50 ways to leave your lover.
Most of us enter relationships thinking/hoping/confident that "this will be the one". Unfortunately things don't always turn out as we would like. Take time to heal body and soul before embarking on another relationship. You're an attractive, personable, kind and loving man. Things will work out for you and you'll find happiness again. In the meantime, your friends amd blogger buddies including myself are here for you.
uh oh, at least you are sounding optimistic in this post. And look at all the comments you got already, sheesh. I think we're all taking numbers.
* waits in line *
oh shit!.. I'm married... dammit.
Well - I would if I wasn't!!
how's that for a little compliment?
You still got us! And you still got your hot bod!
Hey hottie, don't worry... you'll be perfectly fine :). And remember, you always have us :)
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