As an educated man capable of critical thinking, I find most of organized religion to be phooey. Preachers say, "You have to have faith!". Why? Are we supposed to believe everything we are taught in catechism and church just because you say it's so?
I always lean towards skepticism fully aware the human mind is easily manipulated. The history of mankind shows that people are corruptible and operate with agendas: Nazi Germany, Japanese Imperialism, America's War on Terror, Mad Mullah's quest to kill all infidels, The Catholic Church's crusades and inquisitions, etc.
So far, I have yet to meet a talking snake, see Jesus, or solve the riddle of how Mary miraculously gave birth to Jesus magically by the Holy Spirit. I am not afraid to say that much of the Bible reeks of made up bullshit by the Church to acquire 10% of your income so we gullible fools can get into a fictional place called "Heaven".
THEN IT HAPPENED...
I cooked a delicious meal of black-eyed peas with rice, ham, and ciabatta bread. Mean Cub announces that he does not eat black-eyed peas. Wait a minute -- I have seen him eat refried beans, black beans, lentils, and red-beans. Can you at least try them??? He refused to even taste ONE PEA, pushing them all to the edge of his plate in disgust. What a dick. I was so furious, I screamed -- "It's tradition to eat black eyed peas for New Years! I guess 2014 will be another year of no prosperity or good health for you!!!"
When it was time for bed, I chose to sleep in another room because the hatred for my partner was burning red hot. He had been a douche all week and not eating what I cooked was the final straw. I tossed and turned all night in anger. "I HATE HIM! HE'S SUCH A LOSER!"
At approximately 4am on New Years Day, I had what can only be described as an out of body spiritual experience. I was being pulled up stairs and through long hallways. Something that can only be described as the ghost of Christmas Future or perhaps a Guardian Angel was determined to show me something. I was pulled into a medical room where I saw my partner Mean Cub being treated. He was not well, from what I do not know. I cannot forget the look of sadness upon his face, facing an unknown medical condition alone.
I was pulled through the hallway to another room. There was Mean Cub again! Once again looking sad... facing his ailment alone... I was pulled into yet another room and another with the same scene of my partner until I begin to feel empathy
. At that moment, anger subsided and feelings were reset. I felt a strong sense what my partner needed the most was support -- not judgement.
The vivid dream shook my foundation. What caused this dream? Was my subconscious or SOMETHING else working hard to change my mindset? Who or what was intervening?
I was being made to see things by something that I cannot explain. Makes me go, "Hmm..."
I got up and went back to where my partner was sleeping. I begin to cuddle him and found myself saying, "I'm sorry... sorry for everything!" He replied back, "I'm sorry too." Suddenly I felt these wet-like human emotional thingees fall down my cheeks. I think you people call them "tears"? Soooo.... strange... because I NEVER cry.
Now I am left pondering... what force was at play here? What seized my mind to redirect the anger I felt towards my partner? It's sooooo spooky and I cannot explain it.